hmmm hi! after a long long time, i'm finally back typing in here. These few days have been arguably the most busy and filled days of my jc life. haha have been goin out everiday till my mum bu shuang me. majestia was last week. to me, it went quite gd considering the fact we were toiling and scraping thru everi band prac be4 that. u noe, its realli special when u perform because u noe that this is YOUR platform and all those people sitting in those comfy red seats are anticipating your performance, whether they came because of pure moral friendship obligations or because of true interest in the music, they came n that's what mattered. ahhh.. y am i even toking abt these type of nonsense thing..

hmmm. dere was supposed to be a section outing after the performance but tianying wanted to pak lan.. so suan le.. i followed my ex-bandmates to eat eat at macs.. haha oops cancel the 's'. its supposed to be mac. after that i went to hw's hse to stay over with mr chew hb. hmm felt great jus being arnd them once more because i thought we had all moved on as in we had forgetten each other but now.. we still yi jian ru gu and hit it off realli well.. haha den mon i went to sch for badminton.. its been a realli realli long time. and i played with jessie gy and friends.. haha too lazy to type. yea..

nxt day was unofficial handover day and the new exco was formed. well congrats to all hu got into the commitees! to pple hu were asking me whether i am sad, i am not. simple as that. posts are like cars. u get that flashy feeling when u are manouvering thru unchartered territories but at the same time, u also pay so much for the patrol and at the same time, u may accidentally piss off ur friends because u r too flashy. hmmm wait, dun get me wrong.. this isn't me eating sour grapes. i wouldn't have minded a post but oh well! since i din get it den tt's it. y brood over it?
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well wed was tj concert day and i have to say their chosen was simply appetizing. haha as hw said in a 'quite' crude way.. it was orgasm everitime the horns went strutting their stuff. haha it was realli realli impressive so to tj band-its.. great job! but, dun mind me saying all these.. the second half was quite a letdown because despite valiant efforts, they din manage to realli recreate the magic of the chosen. the stageband was super duper entertaining tho.. haha nssn mus have something like that!! the guy realli acted damm gay and kudos to him! haha now..

lots of random stuff are jus popping out in my head.. flashes of memories jus keep passing by. life suddenly seems so sad. i dun noe how to put it. its like yes i'm having lots of fun playing but there's the exams coming up. there's also the case of me getting to know lots of great pple like the vs and dunman and tkgs and maris and sooo mani other frends but are they 100% sincere in friendships? do they go arnd backstabbing? i don noe. and i don reallly wan to noe. there are my old buddies... my friends.. how are they doing now? does it mean goin to diff jcs put an end to me and them? have i made a damm wrong choice in coming to vj? shld i have gone to mj or tj.. argh..i realli dun noe.. but what i mus clarify with pple from other jcs hu stereotype like me last time. its not true, pple from top schs are not self centered, they are not nerdy, they are jus like us. everione of them. so please do not out-casting rj-cians all these pple le.. cos i regret being so naive in my thinking last time. lives are sooo full of regrets.. and life is like so weird now. its full on the outside but quite empty in the inside. grr... this sucks.. hope this is not depression. oh and i absolutely detest smth.. it sux being a minority in vj. all my close frens split and went to diff jcs and suddenly, my soccer pals, my band mates.. they are all gone. i'm left alone in this veri stressful environment with alot of backstabbing.. argh. hate hate hate this.. i dun like this feeling.... at all.

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