Sunday, March 22, 2009
God. Damn. It. I am so disappointed.
Should I really blame others? I can so easily think of a million other factors leading to this. But damn, I find it hardest to fool myself.
The worst thing is, why in the world am I only feeling shitty and exasperated now. After 2 whole long damn years.
Procrastinating. Fuck it. I should stop saying later. I'll screw my whole freaking life up.
I find it hard to believe I'm actually blogging this on purpose. Maybe I just want the whole world to know how dumb I am. Maybe I just want this to be a damning reminder for the future me to note.
That I am at a turning point in my life right now.
That I indeed, have a penchant for storing shit up before self-imploding.
That saving things for later will never work out.
randomMADNESS
6:29 am;________________________________
